Has been an extremely emotional and eventful couple of weeks. To be honest it always is but I’ve been trying to keep my head above water and put into practice all that I preach. Sometimes as hard as you try, you just need to allow yourself some recovery time.
I know there has been a lot of legitimate factors contributing to my emotions but I really hate feeling like this!
The last 2 weeks have consisted of extra therapy sessions, medical appointments, school progress meetings, sleepless nights, Madi starting on medication, winter blues and tax time at our family accounting business.
I always feel totally drained after both kids in school therapy meetings. Even though we are so proud of their progress, it’s also a big slap in the face as to how far behind they are and how much extra help and support they actually need.
I’ve had major anxiety about the whole Madi medication scenario. So far, it has certainly had a positive impact but not a prolonged affect. Madi has been up and down herself emotionally and still can’t verbally express how she feels. Mixed emotions all round there but will take time to adjust, get it right and our heads around it.
We’ve had to survive on only a couple of hours sleep at least 3 or 4 nights of the week with Madi being her bouncy, buzzing self for a decent 4-hour stint.
Being flat out at work, dealing with winter depression, cold, dark, lack of vitamin D and female hormones certainly hasn’t helped.
At one point there was definitely a time I should have allowed myself to release my emotions and cry but I am always trying so hard to be strong for everyone!
Writing this, re reading and reading it out loud has helped me release it a bit.
I have been exercising every day, not dinking at all and reminding myself of all the positive factors with our end goals in sight.
There are friends I should be calling and other things I should probably be doing but I really don’t want to speak to anyone. I just want to sit down and binge watch TV!
Each day I’m dragging myself out of bed to deal with it all over again and do the best that I can.
I feel like there is definitely a recovery period time for me after a couple of extra emotional weeks like this, even when you are attempting everything possible to help you thrive and survive.
You need to sit down, hold on tight and wait for the rollercoaster ride to make its way back up again…